I was looking for the name, God in your post and I am glad I found it. I think God loves you specially.

Yes, God is the father I always needed but he is also as stern as loving.

While you think you are not needed or wanted, good things keep happening to you. You only went for a cup of coffee and got a job.

Well I did not take the job but I am still tempted to. I do not know if a job at a chocolate shop is what I am wanting or need. I wouldn't say its good or bad just is. I really do not feel wanted or needed in general but always feel like a tool for others to take advantage of.

It is great to know you enjoy making posts on hive, that's commendable too. Get out of the house, socialize more, who says you are not wanted? You sure are. Sorry about the snow

Well, I love the snow! I think people are too busy in their own lives to want anything more than what they already have. I think that God does want me but wants me to focus on myself ie meditate, exercise and relax.

Thanks for your honest concern!