I completely understand - I think it's the covid bullshit that has flattened my desire to create. I am forcing myself to push through it. I have a show in July that I have to make pieces for and I feel like a factory. I can't even really spend time thinking about whether they are "good" or "not" or what - I simply have to do them or I won't. But I don't feel like "art" is going to get us out of this fakery we are in - however the ART PROCESS will - the process of praying to the UNKNOWN source of creativity and asking for answers to come through me - will bring the answers that will be my contribution to humanity - but it is just very hard - and it is Mercury RX as well - so I am just waiting it out - that will be over soon and then I will return to cranking out the work for the show and trying to be helpful to the freedom community.