This year has been quite a though one for me because I didn’t think I’d have to go through this much emotional stress. The year didn’t really start on a good note as I lost a very dear friend of mine to a tragic car accident. Then I also lost a family member who was very dear to me that same week. January was that one month in the year I wish never happened.
But I still learnt to hold on to our beautiful memories and live feeling and happily. Honestly, the year hasn’t been that bad even though there were so many bad days. I mean, today is one of those days because tell me why I’m all hyped up writing this post like I wasn’t the same person bawling my eyes out a few minutes ago. Man, life is weird.
It’s the season of love, obviously and this season is one to be cherished by everyone. This is that time of the year where we get to see our family and friends after months off even a whole year of being away. It feels so good to have everyone back again at the same place it all began. I love it when I get to spend time with everyone I love and care about and days like this are why I’m grateful for this life.
But amidst it all, there’s sometimes those empty chairs we have in the room. Chair we yearn to be filled by the people who used to occupy them. If only we could see them one more time, share a drink with them and laugh about silly jokes. If I could have just one person fill a seat this Christmas, it would be my grandmother, may her soul rest in peace.
I’m not even going to lie, my day has been a very shitty one and days like this make me miss her more. She just has a way of making the room a lot lighter. She held us all together as one. She knew how to make you feel at home, talk you into or out of something and be your safe space. She was my safe space, and I don’t think I’d ever have to worry about bad days if she was here with me. If I could, I’d love to give her this chance to share this beautiful day with me and probably say our goodbyes.
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