It got to the point where I didn’t even want to hold my baby in the beginning.

I totally understand this. Thank God for our strength.

Also, I want to mention that a good friend of mine @lauramica created a nice community called Daily Blog where she invited people to share about their day, special events and occasions like this there.

I didn't know the blog let's you post occasions and events. Thank you very much for this information.

Thank you too for your best wishes. I appreciate