Nostalgia Vs The Future - Dreaming of a place far away.

in OCD4 years ago


Thailand - Year 2003.


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(Always had my gameboy with me lol)


In 2003 me and my parents went to Thailand for semester,it was and still is the only tropical semester i have been on with my parents,we were supposed to go back the next year but we cancelled in the last minute and i mean i'm glad since that was the year when the Tsunami hit...and the only other place i have went to after that was in 2012 to Magaluf.


I still remember everything about the experience even though it was 17 years ago,and there's nothing else i want more in the world to get that kind of experience again.


I am a very nostalgic person and having something so big in my memories makes my head spin so much because i know they are so far away...but i'm still happy that i can hold on and cherish it. One day i hope to come back to Thailand again and form new memories i can share with my loved ones (i bet people are tired of me talking about it now and then lol)


I have so many things i want to do in my future,i want to travel the world and work from a laptop while travelling,so even though i am this nostalgic person who prefers to dream away to the past i need to start doing something about my future,i just don't know where to start but one thing i know is that i am tired of living the life i have lived for 6+ years now inside four walls and not being able to go outside for a longer period of time without getting too much anxiety so that i have to go back inside again.


I need to face my fears some day eventually and i talk big but somehow something inside me stops me from executing on my big words...i don't know hopefully something snaps and i have the courage to seek discomfort over comfort.


If anyone have any suggestion i am open ears!
Also if you stayed through my rant,Thank you here's a cookie for you. 🍪