“...every desire is a discouragement of the spirit, and any ministry - wisdom.”

"The Eyes of My Brother, Forever" Stefan Zweig

For me to understand this, I had to make a lot of mistakes that almost took my life. But, I WANTed to understand, let it be a very winding path, it led me to understand.
Many people are satisfied with desires at the level of instincts and avoid complex actions. Their life is full of fun and joy, but their last days will be empty. My life is a series of monotonous, planned steps that deprive me of time for fun and joy, but my last days will be filled with pride in all those things that I was able to carry out thanks to my monotonous, planned actions.

Ps. Sorry what i didn`t long write. But, I write the last sentences myself, without a translator. :)