Your piece could be a cautionary tale for others who might be smitten from afar. It can be intimidating to the object of your affection if you pursue relentlessly. You describe calling and sending emails although you received no response. Usually, a girl will worry about such a relentless pursuit. Instead of gaining the object of your desire, you actually manage to drive it away.

In the end, you move along. That sounds like a sensible response.

The way you begin the piece and end the piece has a kind of symmetry. We understand by the end why you were repeating that phrase to yourself.

Thank you for sharing this life experience with us, @abdul-qudus.