He gave me everything I wanted but as a little girl with a little experience and who also wanted to explore, I left him

wait you left him? why?

that was the beginning of your problem like you stated, some good things don't come twice, you were lucky to find someone who showered you with gifts and love but you left cos you wanna explore, now the plot twist is you got the exploration you want and now you are tired of it but does not look like you can get the good guy back...

Sometimes our decision in life can either make or Mar us... You have got a sad story here and I hope you find someone who will be ready to stay with you till the end, the street is no longer smiling, guys ain't serious anymore, they just want to do and go