My secret.

It seems that I did not hide my secret well enough and it became a public knowledge- I am an idiot. This fact is clear because I tend to set myself goals that are impossible to achieve. Like a few years ago when I believed that I could find love in Hive. The girl I liked was from a different country. I was broke, my english was perhaps even worse than it is now and I had never been outside of Lithuania. A normal person would had seen that situation is hopeless right away and would have moved away with his life immediately. But I actually dreamed about meeting her and living together happily ever after...I even wanted to travel to HiveFest at Bangkok(the distant corner of the world) just so I could meet the girl I liked and spend a few days with her. I even memorized Sinatra's Strangers in the Night just for that occasion. As you can see I was an idiot back then already. But my craziness doesn't stop with my romantic life. I keep repeating the same thing and expect a different outcome. I been making art and blogging since 2017. During that time I believe that I made 100+ art pieces and drawings... And sold only 5 of them. Again sane person would have given up by now and started doing something else. But I keep trying. Just recently I moved to digital art with hopes that it will sell better.

I also have wasted a ton of Hive playing Blackjack and other Hive slot games. Few times I thought that I am done gambling but after a while gave in to temptation again and relapsed. In 2024 surprisingly enough I have achieved my crazy goals- I had collected 10k HP(now less because I changed some to HBD) and 1k HBD in savings. So what do I do with that? Take some profit like most people? No. I keep on holding and buying with hopes that one day my HP and HBD will be able to guarantee me a financial freedom and calm elderly age. So my goals for 2025 are as crazy as ever. After all I am an idiot so I can't stop dreaming big and having crazy goals...So in 2025 I hope to achieve 12000 HP, 2000 HBD, make more sales of my art and master digital art better(because for now I am not able to use my drawing tablet and pen well. Two digital pieces above were drawn with mouse). I know that those goals are crazy but I think that my life would be boring if I would not be chasing some impossible dream...