When one has a particular experience with the death of others, fear takes on a different meaning.
My experiences with death, especially of family members and also my pets, I think are somewhat different from the rest, although other people can go through what I have gone through.
Knowing in advance that they are leaving is not nice, but at the same time it helps me to prepare myself.
Experiences I have had countless times, with many of my family members, almost all of whom are now deceased and with the pets I have had before as well.
From dreaming of their death, to seeing them go, months before they do, to experiences before they leave and after they leave. I has lived through all of that.
The experiences that have been the strongest in my life are those that have to do with my grandmother and with one of my first pets, called Roñy.
In the case of my grandmother, I knew she would die more than six months before it happened, on four occasions I was presented with images of it, without knowing what it was, and then I discovered it.
Days before she died, I was next to her in the hospital, when she was in a coma, and I would talk to her and tell her how much I loved her. Tears were streaming down her cheeks. For those who say that people in comas don't listen, I can tell you that they do, they just can't communicate.
After she left, I had the most powerful experience of my life when she came to see me and say goodbye. I wasn't dreaming, I was awake and I saw her at her most beautiful. It made me feel what it is like to be where she is and I tell you that I wanted to go with her, but she said no.
Then in dreams she came to visit me and warn me of events. They all came true. She is like a guide now.
As for my pet Roñy, he was a street cat, I found him in 2001, he lived 14 years and I think he died of sadness because months before my other cat Tuty had died, and I think he did something heroic for me.
Between him and me there was a unique connection just by looking at each other, he was my guardian always.
When he was diagnosed with kidney failure, the vet told me: I don't know how he is still alive. And I thought: I do know why, to take care of me.
When he was very bad, he looked me in the eyes, I took his paw and told him: I'll be fine, you have to go and stop suffering. He sighed and just walked away. I think they are magic, they are.
These experiences have made me understand many things about death and what is after, as well as issues related to the soul, they gave me knowledge and security.
I have suffered a lot of pain from these deaths and others in my life and I have also suffered a lot of fear, fear for them, not for what I suffer but for what they go through.
But I believe that fear is part of life, and it keeps us alert, it is an emotion that makes me human and that we learn from. The same for pain.
In the last 10 years, I have lost my 49 year old cousin, a very young man, my cousin last year and my aunt this year. Also a pet Lissa, a beautiful kitten who was always delicate, but I was able to give her six and a half years of life. Many of my former students, whom I loved very much, have also died... I have lost a lot of people in the last few years. And every time I felt fear, but if I took a drug that would take it away... it would erase those experiences and even the memory of all those people.
Even if it hurts, I would never erase that, because they were all special to me, they are part of my life. They are ugly memories their deaths, but there are also beautiful memories and I focus on them, I don't want to erase them. I wouldn't take any drugs to do that ever.
Life is made up of beautiful and ugly moments, and also fears, brave is the one who faces them and moves on, that makes me stronger. Why erase that?
What do you think about these issues? Do you have experiences similar to these weekend themes proposed by @galenkp? I'd be happy to read you in the comments.
I send you a big greeting, wishing you a very good weekend.
Amonet.
Used translator Deepl.com free version.
Not all of us have the aura developed enough to live this type of experience, it must not be easy to be able to see death in advance, especially when it concerns the beings we love
I really appreciate that you let us know about this experience that you have lived with your grandmother
Have a beautiful day dear friend @avdesing
I have got used to it and now I can talk about it. Thank you always for being there. Hug!
I think you said something that made me understand a lot of what I feel when death approaches: you say you feel fear for them, for what they went through or what they are going through. Well yes, that's what frustrates me most about death.
I'm very sorry for your losses, and I think I told you once that those who live through the things you have lived through do so because they are prepared for it. Not all of us have access to this knowledge.
A hug.
Sometimes it's not fear of death... there can be fear of suffering or fear of others leaving and loneliness or something like that.
Thank you always!
It saddens me to hear about all the losses of loved ones you have had @avdesing
I honestly don't think I'll ever be ready to have this kind of knowledge
Have a beautiful day
Enjoy yourself as a child, enjoy yourself, life is beautiful!
rony's story touches me too much
the truth is that i also believe that they are very special beings
death will always be a painful impact in the life of a human being
to let go and accept that they will no longer be here in the present body
it will always be a process.
Exactly, a process that one has to go through in order to learn, to mature and to know that it is part of life itself. Thank you Monica!
Amiga, I set out to write something easier and less disturbing this weekend, but your reading touches me in a very special and close (also painful) way.
There is something very interesting in all this, only people who have lived through the death of people and pets very near and dear to them have an extraordinarily acute sensitivity to almost everything.
I don't think this is the right time to recount, but I have gone through situations very similar to yours and I was left inside with a pain that constantly brings me closer to perceiving death in others.I don't know if they are my follies but it has happened to me very often and that sometimes scares me.
Without fear that someone will disprove me, we have been on another mental level. Sometimes knowing too much is terribly bad.
My eternal embrace.
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Don't be afraid to tell what has happened to you, there are communities where you can tell stories, ask me anything... I'll believe you, I've been alive for many years. The pain and fear passes with time.
A big hug!
I have a story about that, but I need to revisit it because there are things I don't know how to describe well....
If you want you can suggest me some appropriate community for it.
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It's complicated to have a specific community for that but I tell my stories in Spooky Zone, since it's like paranormal.... fits better there and two of my group mates are moderators there. You can check it out first and if you like it....
Vale, graciasssss
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Not everyone is prepared to face a death, especially when it is sudden, one is left wondering if they will be okay on the other side, where they pass through to get to paradise, if there is such a place or not.
Once a professor told me that we are not afraid of death, but of the form, he may be right, the fear of a slow and violent death is reasonable, what is after, we will know when the time comes.
I deviated from the subject, as usual haha
I like your reflections and it is true that we are often afraid of the form and not of the fact itself and the suffering. On the other side... don't be afraid!
Hi @avdesing, I was touched by your experience with Roñy; of the people who left I also feel the same, I would not erase any memory.
You have left a very touching ublication.
Hug.
What I have learnt makes me see life differently, my experiences with cats are amazing, I have many of them, some of them even hard to believe but they are there. That's why they are my guides, I love them... I don't know if you knew that hahaha.
Thank you very much and good night @enraizar !✨
I knew your sensibility to access other planes, I didn't know about the cats. And really, a very beautiful post.
They accompany me many times, they are the only ones who can go through certain plans.... they have taken care of me many times.
He vivido con gatos durante años, y son seres especiales, ayer grabé a un gato callejero que se acercó a mí y se puso dos veces con la barriga hacia arriba mirándome. Gatom, que en cuanto vio a unos vecinos a lo lejos se fue pitando. No me extraña que te protejan, y me alegro de que sea así.
Sobre mi protectora.... No te quiero decir quien me protege, y no es una salamandra 😂, y en principio no es "real".
Un abrazo muy grande Amonet.
Quien dice que es real o no.... nunca se sabe jajaja
Abrazo, hasta mañana!!
Hasta mañana Amonet, que tengas una gran noche!!
You really have a lot which you have learned from the death of your family members
I have indeed learned a lot, thank you very much!
First of all, I am sorry for your losses. I believe that to live those experiences that you narrate to us you must have certain qualities that allow you to live them, they are not for everyone, only a chosen few experience them. At least you have learned from them. Thank you for sharing with us 🤗
We all leave at some point, we are just passing through this world, but if the experiences have been strong. I take them as part of my life and as warnings that are given to me. Maybe it's because of my extreme sensitivity... thank you very much for always being there.😃
Keep taking the positives from these experiences, they make you wiser 🤗
Thank you @mdrguez 😘
I think you are very strong, as well as gifted. I am afraid all the time, yes, because I am old and I know I will not live as long as I have lived. I have lost many family and friends and have suffered them. Interesting what you have told and shared with us. Big hugs and enjoy Sunday with a nice walk and so we will walk with you. 🥰🤗❤️❤️
Don't be afraid, if you're afraid of where you're going... it's a nice place... what you suffer most is when your family leaves. I send you a big hug!😃
Es lo más seguro en la vida y lo más triste también, desde que nacemos deberíamos estar preparados pero no es así, perder un familiar como una mascota es lo más difícil que hay 😭🥹, abrazos querida. @avdesing
Lo es... y también parte de la vida, gracias Nay!
Hi, I love walking through the forest and finding fairies and elves, nice post my lady.👍👍👍
Thank you Cholito, thank you!!😃