Ah ha, yes! Wu Wei. Action without action. I like it
I agree about 'feeling' and that it is perhaps easier for the female of our species but only because men have been conditioned to 'not cry like a girl' and 'be a man' I read a book by Jason wilsson, Cry Like A Man, that helped me understand this more.
Yeah, I get what you are saying about the ego and think we touched on this before at some point. I don't think it's bad to have an ego. I suppose what I'm trying to say is that my previous attempt to heal or obtain enlightenment have been fueled by my ego which is why it failed.
I will look up those books by Ceanne Derohan, thanks for the recommendation and this interaction my friend.
Peace x
Women are generally (not always) literally 'made' of more emotional essence (yin) than men (yang) are, so even when men become very emotionally liberated, they are likely to still be less emotionally present than an equivalent and emotionally liberated woman. None the less though, yes, both men and women have been hugely controlling of their own emotions and so even a man who frees a small percentage of his emotional body will seem more emotional than most women at this point.
I'm not 100% sure I know exactly what you perceive your problem was with ego and enlightenment - but it might help to look at the definitions of what enlightenment is. Many people think of enlightenment as a rarely attained and mysterious goal that equates to immortality and the ability to know all things etc. :)
In reality, enlightenment is a process of increasing personal light, which means 'understanding more' (accurately). School children are on a path of enlightenment (assuming they have good teachers and are actually learning). There are certainly pitfalls and traps that relate to self judgement and lack of self acceptance which suggest ideas like 'I shouldn't be enlightened, I'll just seem pompous' and 'being enlightened means the person thinks they are better than other people' etc.
Since the majority of people have so heavily limited their own expansion, awareness and light level, it doesn't take much to reach the point where you are moving beyond the majority of people. Allowing the heart to have a voice and to provide a balance is needed in order to stay grounded and to not judge other people as 'less than' or other such ideas. The heart and loving light can always find balance when needed - we just tend to hold judgements which claim this isn't needed or useful. So many judgements!