Having a big project over my head is always too overwhelming. I can’t focus. I can’t give it my all. I just feel paralyzed by how big the project is.
The best I can do is separate the project into lots of little pieces and make a schedule for it but the paralyzing pressure is only partly relieved, and so I end up procrastinating anyway.
Contrast this with when I just follow my inspiration and do whatever I feel like in the moment with a clear and unhindered desire to act.
I may want to procrastinate but I know the first 5-10 minutes is the hardest and so that is the only time I need to push myself at all.
Once I’m going I can work for 3-4 hours uninterrupted. I take a break for some food, to stretch and maybe catch up on messages but the whole time I am thinking about the project and how to make it the best I can make it. I can jump right back in once I’ve rested and reset for an hour. Then I can spend another few hours on it.
During that time I’m working I may have a pang of inspiration to do something else, perhaps a completely different project, maybe one I’ve already started. I may be editing a video and have an urge to finish a song I was working on. So I wrap things up and change modes and work on the song for 3 hours before having the inspiration to write a post or get back to the video or reach out to some people about a collaboration.
I can go on like that indefinitely. I take breaks merely as a way to get back to an optimal state but I never really feel tired except certain parts that require me to put a lot of emotion, lyrics or poetry being the only emotional taxing thing that comes to mind.
So I think in the future I will only accept translation work or editing work that is exciting for me. I’ve actually thought about offering to translate some of my favorite artists work (books, films, lyrics) for a discounted price, and if I had a loose schedule that would be exciting and I could get into a flow state.
This translation project I’ve been doing has been weighing heavy on me for a month and slowing me down. I’ve finished about 13 long files in about 6 weeks and have 3 more to go. Going to try and finish before next weekend, but we will see!
Meanwhile I had $0.98 in my bank account last week but I’ve held off on selling crypto. Will try to wait until the next big pump before taking some profits.
It’s funny how none of this gets to me any more. I’m still able to focus on what would be best to achieve my goals and don’t let money problems tie me up.
From now on a want to get better at being social again and come out of my cave but only in moderation because I don’t want to sacrifice any of my projects just to kill time with people. I want to connect with people who are doing interesting things, people who are interested in what I do and people who I can help in some way who would appreciate that help.
Let’s fucking go 2025 🔥🔥🦞🔥🔥
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Meanwhile I'm on the other side of that but it could just be having had a big project for multiple decades XD I get mad when anything and everything gets in the way of me working on it XD
Procrastinating things by working on other things that also need to be done is a lot of how I've gotten things done over time x_x long as you're able to keep to any applicable deadlines that's...well I'm not sure if it's good but it's definitely something XD
A big project for multiple decades? for work or the story? I think if you have set working hours and not-working hours and meet the deadlines, it's fine!
The problem with this project is that it was so hard to judge how much the workload would be cause it's written text that was screen capped and scrolled through in a video. No way to count how many works or pages it was, and not all of it needed translation...and it had no deadline. Also I don't need to do it for work. I'm getting paid but it's more of a favor for someone who has helped me immensely. I didn't realize what a commitment it would be.
My usual (the stuff I don't always progblog). Work is a lot of 1-3 year projects XD
if they stay that's how long I'll have any given child in my group for
Sounds like an unexpectedly decent sized project O_O