Did I tell you my friend is a senior VIP teacher along with her husband? They manage the centre and teach down in Tasmania. So I know a lot about it.
The last time I tried a course it was extremely hot and I had meltdown on Day 2, literally and emotionally, so I've been scared of going back. I had to leave as I had to break both fast and silence as I was suffered heatstroke. It was pretty extreme.
Now I don't think it would serve me. I'm not sure I could endure the pain given a few years of trauma behind me. Small sits at home have to do.
I hear you.
It is very challenging. 👍
I've always thought smaller stints better for integration anyway. Honestly. With plant medicine journeys (micro-dosing) and with meditation. I get the full course intention but yes... it can be counter productive.
Sorry you had that experience. It sounds frightening :/
I was also pretty shell-shocked after my third one. One would expect it to get easier but I think it just gets deeper each time so...
Sending love. Or metta, that is.