I hear you.

It is very challenging. 👍

I've always thought smaller stints better for integration anyway. Honestly. With plant medicine journeys (micro-dosing) and with meditation. I get the full course intention but yes... it can be counter productive.

Sorry you had that experience. It sounds frightening :/

I was also pretty shell-shocked after my third one. One would expect it to get easier but I think it just gets deeper each time so...

Sending love. Or metta, that is.