You've been on my mind now you know.
The thing about Vipassana is that many of the teachers aren't trained with regards to trauma and the practice allows it to surface.
So if the teacher isn't very astute it can really traumatize a person further, you know. It's pretty dangerous actually. I didn't mean to be flippant about this.
I am sitting again daily. Only half hour at time as I've been lazy and cocky about it. How soon we forget, huh?
So short 30 minutes sittings to get back into it slowly. If you want to practice let's make a time that suits. Noble silence of course. Pajamas allowed. It's good to have a schedule for this in a modern world, I think. 👍
Did I tell you my friend is a senior VIP teacher along with her husband? They manage the centre and teach down in Tasmania. So I know a lot about it.
The last time I tried a course it was extremely hot and I had meltdown on Day 2, literally and emotionally, so I've been scared of going back. I had to leave as I had to break both fast and silence as I was suffered heatstroke. It was pretty extreme.
Now I don't think it would serve me. I'm not sure I could endure the pain given a few years of trauma behind me. Small sits at home have to do.
I hear you.
It is very challenging. 👍
I've always thought smaller stints better for integration anyway. Honestly. With plant medicine journeys (micro-dosing) and with meditation. I get the full course intention but yes... it can be counter productive.
Sorry you had that experience. It sounds frightening :/
I was also pretty shell-shocked after my third one. One would expect it to get easier but I think it just gets deeper each time so...
Sending love. Or metta, that is.