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Gadea disclosed that Alec Baldwin has expressed feelings of despair, sometimes feeling that waking up each day is itself a burden. In a touching, vulnerable moment, Baldwin reportedly told a friend, "I'm happier when I'm asleep than when I'm awake." This statement underscores the depth of his mental anguish, reflecting how profoundly the incident has affected him.

Further, Gadea highlighted that Alec experiences survivor’s guilt, a psychological phenomenon where survivors feel responsible or undeserving of their survival when others have suffered or died. She explained that Alec harbors an intense wish to have taken Helena Hutchins' place, trading his life for hers if possible. This intense guilt compounds his suffering, illustrating the haunting nature of the tragedy.