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The speaker shares their internal struggle, including feelings of despair and suicidal thoughts, driven by the intense emotional and sensory difficulties. Concerned about their mental health, they sought professional help and visited a psychologist. A series of sessions led to a pivotal revelation: the realization that they are autistic. This diagnosis provided clarity, explaining their reactions and sensory sensitivities. The psychologist's assessments felt like a relief—a confirmation that their experiences were valid and that they were not "bad," "ill," or "evil" but simply autistic.