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In the beginning, the speaker reflects on their earlier life and the extreme shyness and lack of confidence they experienced. They vividly remember the fear of dying alone, which stemmed from an anxious neediness that often pushed potential partners away. The realization that they weren’t the person deserving of love or happiness was a powerful awakening for the speaker. Initially, they felt trapped in the cycle of self-doubt, living a life dictated by societal expectations rather than personal desires.