It is also about mindset, I think. Nothing is permanent when it comes salaried engagement. It is what we choose. For instance, my wife always complains that she is super busy and would enjoy days where she does not need to do anything. To be honest, she is most cranky and annoying when she has nothing to do. In that sense, putting urgency on everything you do could be your way of performing or addressing the risk you anticipate in your other job. For me, the new engagement is to satisfy my ego.