I'm in tears reading this post over and over again, each time piercing my heart a little deeper. My body has been in pain during pregnancy and even now after a year of giving birth. My heart is still in pain for all the struggles I have endured silently. My mind is all over the place. I still don't know how I am able to survive and continue surviving now.
For years, I have been wondering when will my yielding point be. But whenever I see other people surpass their own battles, I feel proud and envious at the same time. I feel proud because I know winning against one's emotion is difficult. And I feel envious because I hope I'd be as strong as they are. But despite the envy, I still continue to live on. I've had a few attempts (su*cide) in the past but came out even bolder.
Now, looking back at the past, I could say I have stretched my breaking point a bit further. And this is because of the people who never asked but remained present in the darkest times of my life.
Thank you so much @galenkp for this post. This hits differently. This hits home!
Hi @nikkabomb reading your comment my heart swelled and I really wanted to reach out and hug you because I understand.
I read some of your posts previously about how the step into motherhood with the surrounding stresses changed things for you and you felt like you lost yourself. I get it, I totally understand because I have been there - and yet, here you are being that strong woman, pushing forward. I know how much inner courage and strength that sometimes takes and I know how hard it can be. I am so very proud of you and you know what? You should be proud of you too!
When I have those days when I wonder how much more I can take, I break it down into tiny pieces and focus on one thing at a time that I can do or resolve and it helps to reduce the feeling of overwhelm.
Please take care of yourself and know that many people understand, you aren't alone 🌹 Never be afraid to speak your truth or ask for help when you need it.
Hello @andrastia. Thank you so much for your comment. My heart is at ease knowing that a lot of people encourage me to stay strong. I am grateful for your comment because it made me feel less lonely. Post-partum depression is real and is not just some sort of drama. I am lost with words right now hehe. I am just glad you reached out to me. Thank you so much. Love lots!
Hi Nikka, Postpartum depression is serious, I experienced it too and it was horrible. You made it through and I am glad you are here Nikka.
If you ever need to chat or you are in a tough spot, please feel free to send me a message ok? ❤️
Wow this is highly appreciated @andrastia. Thank you so much. I will surely message you soon. Are you on discord?
Hey Nikka. Yes I am, send me your discord tag and I will send you a message there so we can stay in touch 🦋
nikkabomb#1961
Thank you 🥺😘
I've sent you a friend request Nikka, I'm heading out for a bitty now now so won't be at my Discord much, but please feel free to send me a message and I will reply to you as soon as I get home ok? Stay strong, sending you a hug.
Hi @nikkabomb, thanks for your comment and sharing your personal story and some very personal information.
We, as humans, sometimes have to face terrible times and at times those moments are so painful we can't seem to see through them to the other side. that's when we're at risk of breaking I guess and when that happens we can often make decisions based around the pain and suffering.
The thing is that we're not always strong, can't always be that way, and so often need to look for support from others. It's at those times when we can draw strength from those around us who have been through similar to what we have or at least understand it, the pain and strife, the desperation we feel. It's ok to rely on people sometimes and I believe it's a strong person who askes for help when he or she needs it.
The paths we walk are not always smooth and not always do they take us through beautiful gardens bathed in sunshine and full of flowers. Sometimes there's storms, rain, thunder and lightning and sometimes the paths are rough...But as we travel we can be helped along by others, inspired and uplifted, and as that happens we learn, we gain strength and we move forward.
I think you've had this journey and understand what I'm saying. It's good to have you around to make this comment and I look forward to seeing you around some more. I'll end with my life ethos which I end my posts with...Design and create your ideal life, don't live it by default. Also, remember it's a strength to ask for help when you need it, not a weakness.
Thank you so much @galenkp. I will put more effort in designing my own life the way I want it to be. And I will try harder to try to reach out when I need help. I'd be reading more of your posts. :)
Never fail to reach out, you may be surprised who is there to help.
Thank you @galenkp. 🥺