4,5,6 yeah done. Lemme check once again if all of the books are packed or not. Wait a minute, where is my diary?
"Mom, where is my diary? I am not finding it here, I need to pack my bag for school."
"You left it in the other room while you were showing me your home tasks."
Early mornings, school routine, carefree life. Carefree? Not exactly. Today's English homework was too difficult, who knows I might get stuck while submitting. Also, today we have a cricket match and we must win the match. I will be hitting big big sixes.
From the whole day, this playtime duration seems to fade away faster than any time, whether it's the school hours, tuition times, or sitting with mom completing my homework.
Once the playtime finishes then I start my study time. You know, mom makes some evening snacks and sits with me to complete the homework. So many excuses to get away from some of the tasks. They are so hard for a tiny child like me. Moms are moms they would be making so many offers and sometimes become the devil to make the hell out of this tiny soul.
Actually at that phase of life these study loads, plans of play, homework, cartoon times were the things that kept us busy and engaged. But we had complaints, right? We wanted freedom. Let's move on to freedom.
Passed college, started graduation. Kinda got some freedom, right? No need to give an account of home tasks to mom or teachers like before. No strict daily hour routine is imposed to follow. Got the freedom to do whatever I want, whenever or whatever the decision is to call for myself.
During that time I got so much freedom that I lost the perfect track for me, every call made solely you won't always be perfect. Also when the covid started, I was so bored with this freedom stuck in four walls that I was too much annoyed. Eating, sleeping, and repeating the same cycle. This kinda boring freedom schedule made the shit out of the desire to be free from any responsibilities or ties.
Bearing the expenses of our own could be the first step to be the way of responsibilities, right? I guess so. It's also fun and satisfactory to be an accountant of your own needs and responsibilities. What next? Contributing a little bit to the occasional family needs, that's also a pleasure to have. When I got constant earnings am also started to bear another constant responsibility on my shoulder. And that's the tuition cost of my youngest. On top of that, I got a few saving targets to meet every month thinking of a future need. Also, I got different bills to pay every month. So there are certain responsibilities that I took willingly, not like they were imposed forcibly. Things that we take willingly are kinda enjoyable and most likely comfortable to us, imposed responsibilities are somewhere neglected and feel like a burden.
The freedom of choosing the responsibilities I am willingly tying myself with is something that leads me to the need of this phase of my life from my point of view. You know, I would be constantly worried about my responsibilities, thinking of ways to fulfill them. If one path is closed then I would be searching for another to fulfill them and can escape from my responsibilities. Day by day this would be the path to the bigger ones.
Childhood, teenage, or adulthood, being tied with responsibilities is the main thing to move forward. Sometimes we would feel like escaping from them and getting ultimate freedom. But all freedom is not enjoyable, some can turn into disastrous feelings after a certain period. Tying ourselves with comfortable responsibilities is the best way to keep moving in life, maybe from the perspective of this phase of my life.
What do you think?