Rejection can really give a thousand pains and can make one's life shattered. But, I am amazed at you, bro, for being brave enough to confess such feelings. It takes countless times of thinking and courage before one can do that, and though it did not turn out well, what is important is that you have said it already. Somehow, there's a feeling of relief in such a situation. Unlike when you just keep it for the rest of your life.