Sometimes I wish I could be a cloud drifting along in the vastness of the sky, no cares in the world, no responsibilities, no need to be anywhere; just moving where the winds blew and changing shapes without the need to be anything other than what I was. But life isn't at all like being a cloud.
Have you ever wondered how much weight you can carry? I mean emotionally. I have, usually in those moments when the pressure builds and weight piles on. One more thing, one more situation, one more complexity, one more adversity. I've been there many times and clearly managed to find a way forward - I'm still here after all. But how much is too much? When does a person say enough I can take no more? I don't know the answer.
I've faced adversity in my life and I know will do so again as life has a way of biting hard at times. I've dealt with that adversity the best I can and whilst I've not always had good outcomes I've managed to make something happen and moved forward. I don't see any other option.
I was laying in the spring grasses contemplating things, finding a gap in my life, a moment to see and feel things more clearly, and I thought of a few people around me who have, through no fault of their own, had to face adversity and find ways to overcome, adapt and adjust. My first thought was of sorrow and empathy but that soon turned to pride in them and a feeling of hope. You see, each one has refused to sink into a heap, to collapse into a pile of despair, misery and hopelessness. No, each of them have failed...Failed to capitulate!
I love that about each and every one of them. As the people and each of their individual circumstances rolled through my mind I felt proud to know these people, honoured to have such resilient and strong influences around me as role models. They would not call themselves such, but they are. Sure, they're broken, we all are a little but they're also inspirational, uplifting and empowering - They can find courage so I can too.
I don't know how much is too much when it comes to human endurance. I don't know what the breaking point is; different for all I guess. I know that the body can be pushed to amazing lengths before it breaks and I know it's the mind that often breaks first in respect of physical endurance. With that in mind I believe the emotional breaking point is farther away than most believe, that our emotional strength is far greater than what we at first understand. Humans have great endurance, resilience and persistence...We just need to see it and have a reason compelling enough to do it.
Sometimes we drift like the clouds, take different forms and shapes, but we aren't clouds to float along in life we have to take action to move our lives in the directions we wish it to go and for it to take on the form and shape we wish it to resemble.
Design and create your ideal life, don't live it by default - Tomorrow isn't promised so be humble and kind
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I'm in tears reading this post over and over again, each time piercing my heart a little deeper. My body has been in pain during pregnancy and even now after a year of giving birth. My heart is still in pain for all the struggles I have endured silently. My mind is all over the place. I still don't know how I am able to survive and continue surviving now.
For years, I have been wondering when will my yielding point be. But whenever I see other people surpass their own battles, I feel proud and envious at the same time. I feel proud because I know winning against one's emotion is difficult. And I feel envious because I hope I'd be as strong as they are. But despite the envy, I still continue to live on. I've had a few attempts (su*cide) in the past but came out even bolder.
Now, looking back at the past, I could say I have stretched my breaking point a bit further. And this is because of the people who never asked but remained present in the darkest times of my life.
Thank you so much @galenkp for this post. This hits differently. This hits home!
Hi @nikkabomb reading your comment my heart swelled and I really wanted to reach out and hug you because I understand.
I read some of your posts previously about how the step into motherhood with the surrounding stresses changed things for you and you felt like you lost yourself. I get it, I totally understand because I have been there - and yet, here you are being that strong woman, pushing forward. I know how much inner courage and strength that sometimes takes and I know how hard it can be. I am so very proud of you and you know what? You should be proud of you too!
When I have those days when I wonder how much more I can take, I break it down into tiny pieces and focus on one thing at a time that I can do or resolve and it helps to reduce the feeling of overwhelm.
Please take care of yourself and know that many people understand, you aren't alone 🌹 Never be afraid to speak your truth or ask for help when you need it.
Hello @andrastia. Thank you so much for your comment. My heart is at ease knowing that a lot of people encourage me to stay strong. I am grateful for your comment because it made me feel less lonely. Post-partum depression is real and is not just some sort of drama. I am lost with words right now hehe. I am just glad you reached out to me. Thank you so much. Love lots!
Hi Nikka, Postpartum depression is serious, I experienced it too and it was horrible. You made it through and I am glad you are here Nikka.
If you ever need to chat or you are in a tough spot, please feel free to send me a message ok? ❤️
Wow this is highly appreciated @andrastia. Thank you so much. I will surely message you soon. Are you on discord?
Hey Nikka. Yes I am, send me your discord tag and I will send you a message there so we can stay in touch 🦋
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Thank you 🥺😘
Hi @nikkabomb, thanks for your comment and sharing your personal story and some very personal information.
We, as humans, sometimes have to face terrible times and at times those moments are so painful we can't seem to see through them to the other side. that's when we're at risk of breaking I guess and when that happens we can often make decisions based around the pain and suffering.
The thing is that we're not always strong, can't always be that way, and so often need to look for support from others. It's at those times when we can draw strength from those around us who have been through similar to what we have or at least understand it, the pain and strife, the desperation we feel. It's ok to rely on people sometimes and I believe it's a strong person who askes for help when he or she needs it.
The paths we walk are not always smooth and not always do they take us through beautiful gardens bathed in sunshine and full of flowers. Sometimes there's storms, rain, thunder and lightning and sometimes the paths are rough...But as we travel we can be helped along by others, inspired and uplifted, and as that happens we learn, we gain strength and we move forward.
I think you've had this journey and understand what I'm saying. It's good to have you around to make this comment and I look forward to seeing you around some more. I'll end with my life ethos which I end my posts with...Design and create your ideal life, don't live it by default. Also, remember it's a strength to ask for help when you need it, not a weakness.
Thank you so much @galenkp. I will put more effort in designing my own life the way I want it to be. And I will try harder to try to reach out when I need help. I'd be reading more of your posts. :)
Never fail to reach out, you may be surprised who is there to help.
Thank you @galenkp. 🥺
Thank you,
I actually felt chills after reading this.
I really wish a lot of authors could really learn to write from their heart.
I think I'll be happy being a cloud, but then I'll be bored.
Life is full of challenges, hopeless situations that tend to threaten our emotional state, sometimes I wonder how we ever face them.. like you said, it could be that we're indeed stronger than we give ourselves credit for.
This paragraph got to me. I have people like this in my life, who have really been through a lot. Thoughts came to my mind, many situations flashed through my eyes in a split second and I have indeed realized that their strengths has indeed been a driving force to propel me from my down moments.
Thank you again for inspiring me like you always do @galenkp ❤️
Hey there, thanks for your kind words and sharing your things on this post.
I'm one who thinks a lot, thinks deeply and honestly, so tend to see things a little more clearly when it comes to myself - Mostly at least. I have a few things on my mind currently and whilst they are difficult, big decisions often are, I draw strength from those I mention in the post; I find courage springs from their courage. It's a pretty nice feeling although those people would probably play it down and say, I'm just doing what I have to do. Like us all.
I've always taken ownership of myself, decisions and actions, and in this case will do so also. It helps to write it though, to get some thoughts at arms length so I can better see them.
I agree. It is individual. We are emotional beings and every person has a different tipping point that sends them over the edge. True to human nature, it is sometimes the smallest thing that will send people over.
The big things are so huge, they manage them or die trying, but, the little things are sneaky and you don't always notice them. This has been a particularly bad time in many lives; I think I have to blame it on COVID. :) All kidding aside, it is a problem for many.
Great words and thoughts. Always.
Yes, a good point; the little things can often creep up and take one unawares. Just like the good little things adding up to the big things so too do the bad little things. Noticing them, understanding and addressing them is the way forward.
Thanks for your comments as always Swigs.
Thanks for always giving us something to chew on.
You're welcome, and thanks for chewing. 😀
Oh, darlin' You serve the best! 🤣
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How you have already fulfilled your offer with this post. Even without knowing.10-69
I wrote this not long after we were commenting earlier Anna. I'm glad you've seen it and seen through it. Sometimes we have to lift heavy shit and sometimes we need help along the way.
Stay strong.
-Lucille Ball
Life has Ups and Down , Dark and Light, Sun and Moon, Beauty of nature, God blessing .We just need to flip the bread ourself if it start over cooked. I mean to say Struggle and life are best friend but Happiness and energy only come to our life if we know how to live in proper direction.
This is true indeed. Wise words.
thank you for this. i love how you write, your words hit home as well. i will definitely read more of the thoughts you put to words.
Thanks for commenting and the nice words you say; I'm always pleased to know something I've written resonates with someone else.
It's life and it meant to be that way. Just like others some day I feel to leave everything behind and just go somewhere. But these are the ups and downs we have to have with the life and even though we are low we have to keep our spirits high to sail through this amazing journey.
Yes, I think you're right; basically a summation of my post. Thanks for your comment.
I've felt the same way with you, sometimes I feel like the ocean is swinging the waves on the beach, and realize it when you say life is like a cloud that moves in the wind, not forever the cloud will be high, the cloud will fall water is rain, from the rain it falls becomes water.. then the sea water evaporates again and returns to the clouds, maybe this is life that continues to spin, sometimes high sometimes below. Your words really inspire me. 💪
You're right in that life is a cycle and, like the seasons, changes constantly; sometimes it rains, storms and windy and at other times it's clear skies and sunshine. All we can do is deal with whatever may come the best we can, build some techniques to shelter us from the bad times and strategies to mitigate, or deal with, them.
Thanks for your comment, I appreciate it.
I too admire other people who get through adversities and come back strong. They are such wonderful inspirations for me. It's almost like seeing that other people can do it.... it CAN be done, makes me more confident that maybe I can too.
I don't think my life has had more adversity than average, but still, we all have to deal with some.
I think I use to handle it fairly good, being presented with the issue/situation, however it presents it's self, a moment of turmoil and surprise or regret or.... and then the acceptance and figuring out what needs to be done... if anything can be done and either doing it or accepting nothing will change it and carrying on.
As I've gotten older, sometimes it feels like too much. Without purposefully doing it, I have created a mental safe haven, a step out of reality. I retreat to it where I can feel safe and happy.
Yes.. .I still have to handle what needs to be handled, but I have to break it off in small pieces to resolve.
I think this is something that usually only comes with
ageexperience and it's those that find it, that place, that tend to deal with adversity much better than others. The adversity seems less tumultuous, less impactful through a persons ability to deal with it, or find a gap from it to better deal with it moving forward.