My Sweet-Painful Motherhood Experience.

in Motherhood8 months ago

My little champion deciding when I can sleep and when I can stay awake could be mentally draining, but the fact that I can hold him in my arms and he smiles at me, makes me feel so good.

Going through some Instagram videos today, I saw the video of a young lady who lost her child after giving birth, she cried uncontrollably as she shared her story, I was moved to tears on her behalf and I was more than grateful to be able to hold my baby in my arms, healthy and strong.

Because, I am also still recovering from the third-degree tear I had during delivery, and still bleeding, I sometimes just need a little bit of extra rest but that is when my baby wakes up and is ready to play.
Whenever my husband notices I need more rest, he picks up our baby so I can get more hours of sleep while he takes care of him, but since he has to work extra hard to provide for the family's needs, and if the both of us concentrates on our baby alone, it means we will be going hungry soon.

The first week after delivery got me emotional, I was crying at every little instance. I was a new Mum who was happy with the gift of a new child, but I was also very confused about how to go about it. I love children a lot, and I have carried other people's children in the past, playing with them and experiencing the warmth of their love in return, but now that my child is in question, I just got so overwhelmed and emotional all the time.

One time my husband saw me crying in the kitchen, he was so scared and worried that he left everything he was doing and rushed down. For the first time, I opened up to him about how scared and overwhelmed I was with everything going on.

I want to be sure not to do anything wrong to hurt our child, I want to be an amazing Mum, I do not want him to lack anything at all, and considering my current financial status I am so scared about that too, so he held my hands and made promises that he would do everything possible to make sure we both have a good life.

Not sleeping at will/convenience, having to work extra hard to keep baby items neat all the time, and still going through the process of healing myself, is a lot to put together, but this experience is indeed a painful but sweet one.



Spanish Translation.

Que mi pequeño campeón decida cuándo puedo dormir y cuándo puedo permanecer despierto puede ser mentalmente agotador, pero el hecho de que puedo sostenerlo en mis brazos y él me sonríe me hace sentir muy bien.

Hoy revisando algunos videos de Instagram, vi el video de una joven que perdió a su hijo después de dar a luz, ella lloró incontrolablemente mientras contaba su historia, me conmovió hasta las lágrimas por ella y estaba más que agradecida de poder tener a mi bebé en mis brazos, sano y fuerte.

Porque también todavía me estoy recuperando del desgarro de tercer grado que tuve durante el parto y sigo sangrando, a veces solo necesito un poco de descanso adicional, pero es entonces cuando mi bebé se despierta y está listo para jugar.
Cada vez que mi esposo nota que necesito descansar más, levanta a nuestro bebé para que yo pueda dormir más horas mientras él lo cuida, pero como él tiene que trabajar muy duro para satisfacer las necesidades de la familia, y si los dos Si nos concentramos solo en nuestro bebé, significa que pronto pasaremos hambre.

La primera semana después del parto me emocionó, lloraba a cada pequeño instante. Yo era una nueva mamá que estaba feliz con el regalo de un nuevo hijo, pero también estaba muy confundida acerca de cómo hacerlo. Amo mucho a los niños, y en el pasado he cargado a los hijos de otras personas, jugando con ellos y experimentando la calidez de su amor a cambio, pero ahora que mi hijo está en duda, me siento muy abrumada y emocional todo el tiempo.

Una vez mi esposo me vio llorando en la cocina, estaba tan asustado y preocupado que dejó todo lo que estaba haciendo y bajó corriendo. Por primera vez, le conté lo asustada y abrumada que estaba con todo lo que estaba pasando.

Quiero asegurarme de no hacer nada malo que pueda lastimar a nuestro hijo, quiero ser una mamá increíble, no quiero que le falte nada en absoluto y, considerando mi situación financiera actual, eso también me asusta mucho, así que él Me tomó de la mano y me prometió que haría todo lo posible para asegurarse de que ambos tuviéramos una buena vida.

No dormir a voluntad o por conveniencia, tener que trabajar muy duro para mantener los artículos del bebé limpios todo el tiempo y aun así curarme son muchas cosas, pero esta experiencia es realmente dolorosa pero dulce.


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I love children and although people say I'll make a great parent, I still get scared and overwhelmed if I can actually be a good parent, I worry about how I will go about having my own child. Will I be the spanking or the let's talk it out type of parent, will I choose the siblings over the first child, will I have favorite, will I be able to conceive it? I worry about everything but I still want kids and I can't wait to have them.

These things can be overwhelming, but I am learning to take things one step at a time, and I think that is a perfect solution for all the anxiety, believing that everything will fall into place eventually/.

WoW you publications is excellent my friend @

hello, i understand you perfectly because all mothers feel that fear at the beginning, it is not easy to be a mother for the first time because we are full of fear, but little by little we are learning with a lot of intuition how to take care of them, for the moment try to enjoy it because in the blink of an eye this stage will pass. a hug and lots of strength dear mommy

Thank you so much for the kind words, I am trying to stay very positive.

That is the joy of being a mother. Soon he will grow just like you have now.

Right, I am eagerly anticipating. Thanks for your time!!