@surglen at the start I was feeling a bit emotional about the loss you have encountered but rainbow baby, to be honest, it's a blessing and miracle for sure.
Not every lady is strong like you who tolerated all the wrong stuff and gained positive inspiration; keep on trying at least you can't blame yourself.
And your son his smile is much cute than a rainbow. Stay blessed dear although I can't discuss the matter much as I am 22 hehe but my mom is praising your effort.💟