depression is a tough one sometimes that needs pharma help (at least temporarily) so don't shy away from that either

Yes, I find it really hard to work on my current status alone. Even though I am not fully open in front of my therapist, I know I have to share at some point to understand the cause of my depression. I travel whenever I can to stay stable and to bring some colors to life. But when depression is heavy, nothing matters to me and all becomes black totally...

I appreciate your words and thank you so much...