The most important thing for you is to get the necessary help and if the doctors know what you need, you're on the right track. Don't let anyone discourage you. You'll see, in a couple of months, you'll be feeling much better.
Yes, that's the important thing and I am not being ignored or leftover. I had a fear that after rejecting the institutional treatment, probably I wouldn't get any further help but it was not true and my whole perspective changed when I got the new treatment plan after the discussion.
I also wanna thank you for everything. Best wishes to you also and Happy New Year...