Why I write

I feel good when I write.
I write every day, usually for work reasons, I usually have "epistolary relationships" with many of the stakeholders of the projects I manage.

Obviously, communication with them has purely technical or management objectives although, if the relationship is good, we always end up talking about more personal issues using TEAMS.
In communication with them, and after a long time, I have managed to develop a direct and simple communication, it is very easy for me to exchange ideas while I write and although sometimes the problems may need a more oral discussion, writing helps me in the synthesis and resolution of the problem or exposition of the action and also to fix the concept in the brain.
I would like to write more, but not about work aspects but rather about feelings and life in general.
It is curious that, as one gets older, this "need" increases. Writing seems to be an act not only of expression but also of evasion and abstraction that benefits the soul...the problem is always the available time.

Finding available time to write is not easy, especially if you are a busy engineer and father of two children of developmental age. However, the children are becoming more independent and that creates "voids" of responsibility that I have not experienced until now...in truth, I invested a lot of effort in my professional life to have time for my family and to be responsible for it.
Actually, I am already at an age where I know that I do not want more professional responsibilities. I think that the Benefit/effort ratio does not deserve it.
On the other hand, the fact of not having a routine responsibility makes me rethink the question of "what am I going to do now?".

For some, this question could be seen as stupid, but believe me, it is not. Especially for someone who has been continuously busy for the last 25 years, the search for purpose becomes increasingly urgent. In fact, sometimes, when you don't find the "purpose" to fill that "void," it can cause you some anxiety.
I usually make up for this by practicing sports, walking the dog, or fixing something around the house that I've been waiting for for a long time... but sometimes, there is simply no purpose... so writing helps me solve it.
I simply start writing, without any direction, I start by describing how I feel, reflecting on the day, on the future, and on pending work... and this helps me to reorganize my ideas.

I don't know how this happens but the truth is that while I write I experience some kind of enlightenment that guides me and makes me feel much better than when I started.

Writing then becomes like a personal therapy, an escape valve, a sentimental solution, a way of expressing with my inner "self".

Sometimes five minutes of writing is enough to change my mood, other times I have a hard time finding the word or phrase that describes what I feel...but it's always worth writing for myself...even if sometimes I share it with you even though it may not bring you anything special.

I hope I haven't bored you too much with this "freewriting" post

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