I always think of myself as an introvert. I love staying in my room. My friends always find it difficult to bring me to parties or trips. Although I love once in while meetups with my friends, I cannot even bother to bring myself to nearby restaurants for dinner. I cook myself meals or mostly use food delivery services.
After finishing my degree, I got a job in which most of the tasks are online. I always thought about going to offices or on-site works, but that never happened so far. Part of this might also be due to the worsening COVID-19 situation. As I already prefer to limit traveling and stay with myself in my room, I had no objections, until now.
Months of working in my small room. Hours of gazing into same sights. Many meals of the same type. I never realized the routines I have are very shallow. For a person that recharges energy by being alone, I began decaying. I never noticed the harm of limiting my space to a few square meters and a computer screen until now. All I have done is wake up, grind my daily coffee, cook or order food, work on assignments, take a shower, continue working, browse the internet, continue working, go to sleep, and repeat.
Although I am still connected with my friends through social media, I am not physically anywhere else than my room. I feel unmotivated, drowsy, and physically lacking. No amount of caffeine could hype me up. It is only natural because all the movements in my routine are stretching, walking to the kitchen and bathroom, and back to my bedroom.
It was earlier today that I became annoyed about my hair. My hair was long enough to touch my eyes and poke my ears. It has been two months since I last get a haircut, and I began thinking seriously about heading outside because I normally get a haircut every 3 weeks. Whenever I go outside, I will only be outside in my car. It has been a very long time since I last took a walk. The barbershop is only a few kilometers away, and I could not tolerate my hair any longer. So I decided to take a break from work and visit the barbershop on foot.
I felt the sunlight as I walk. It was a long walk, but I did not feel fatigued. Instead, I was refreshed. Out of all things that would wander in my thoughts, I was thinking of the project I was working on. I was no longer stressed or empty thinking about the next steps, and in fact, I was excited about them.
After getting my haircut, my head felt very relaxed. I wanted to visit my places at that moment. I felt like I should pack my stuff and go hike the mountains, or go kayaking. It was surprising how only a 10 minutes walk affect my motivation in general. If my work were completed back then, I would have walked to some nearby parks.
I began missing the days that I take trips to exciting places last summer. Those were the days I felt excited about everything, even the same work that I am doing today. But it is ironic since I am never obliged to stay in my room. I could have been working at a random cafe, or even visit my friends' places to work and chat. It was the routine I developed the last few months that took away good vibes from me. Today, I got back with a refreshed mind and a nice haircut.
Thank you for reading. Take a look at a photo of the sky I took on my way to the barbershop today.
