Welcome to my insecurities

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Hey besties.. how are you today? Hope everything is doing well
Now I wanna share about my insecurities. But first of all what is insecurities anyway?
Insecurity is a feeling of inadequacy (not being good enough) and uncertainty. It produces anxiety about your goals, relationships, and ability to handle certain situations. Everybody deals with insecurity from time to time. It can appear in all areas of life and come from a variety of causes.

So, my insecurities is about my body, i have thick body, chubby face and its makes me insecure
Sometimes makes me feel like an ugly person.
I know i shouldn't feel that way, but sometimes the feeling its just show up to the surface

How can i handle this? How can i change the mindset?
Sometimes i tell my self. No your are pretty as you are and no you will look beautiful in someone eyes
Well sometimes it works sometimes it doesn't.

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Sometimes i listened to a song to increase my self confidence.
The insecure feeling makes an effect on my self confifence and its hard for trusting people
Like when someone makes a compliment to me, i would deny it and sometimes i think they just say that to makes me happy or feel sorry about me
And its hard for me to believe what they said.

And for relation, i need a more assurance from my partner that he really like me or love me

I dont know its just me or some people have the same feeling about this?
I tried to loose weight by going to the gym and makes a diet program, well maybe my effort is not good enough cos there's no significant change.. hahaha
Yeah maybe i'm not trying enough..

I know no matter what you look like, what is matter is what inside of you.
Yeah but sometimes the reality is not like that people
Is it

For girls out there, i just wanna share what i feel about my insecurities..how about your insecurities?

Keep on fighting, now i tried to not to thinking about it to much, i tried to find my happy place/mind
Even its hard but i'm still trying