Different Times Different Thoughts About Life

In the current state of my life, If someone known or unknown asks me a question about how's life going? Or something like this, I mostly go for to reply in a positive sense although I feel the extremely opposite feeling during the time. Do you know why I do this? I have a strong sense that, how I truly feel If I deliver someone with my full of emotion, he will not feel the same feeling as me. Yes, this is the simple reason why I avoid to share my heavy feeling with others sitting together.

© Allec Gomes

Do you have the same feeling about a specific thing that you had at an earlier age? Well, according to time, life changes and in some cases people change too, changes come into our thoughts as we acquainted with many unknown things while growing up. In that sense, our feelings about a specific thing may not be the same. At different stages of my life, I had different sentiments about life.

When I was a kid, I felt life is like colour pencils & white paper where I could art my life in my own way with the colour pencils and the outcome would be on the White Paper, that would not be white anymore. A lot of hobbies and lots of fantastic things were going on in my mind. When I was a teenager, all fantasy was gone from my mind, I was gradually getting out of unrealistic things and getting used to the thing which exists in reality. During that time I felt life was like uncertainty. No matter how we try hard to make the White paper colourful, the colour pencils may break down while painting and the outcome or the art will not come out as your desire.

Yes, this is what uncertainty is! This is how sometimes life treats us. No matter how hard you try to reach your desired place in your life, sometimes you can not even reach or fulfil the things that you truly wanted to achieve. Here luck works, where nothing is in your hands there luck works. It's better to accept luck cordially whether It's good or bad rather than neglect the thing.

At this stage in my life, I love to compare my life with a Rubik's Cube more specifically or more clearly I would say a mismatched Rubik's Cube. Many unusual occurrences happened in the last couple of days, I am feeling life full of chaos. Literally, I have this feeling for my life right now. Hardly find someone in the tough time. I am not saying the number is zero, If that happened then I might not here writing.

People on social media are hardly social, that's what I would say. It was a time when I had a lot of crazes to celebrate my birthday. I would count how many wishes I got, I was eagerly waiting to celebrate the special day. But the previous day I had not the same feeling, most people were well-wishers and after that, I will not find them for a year, but I do not get anyone of them during my tough time. How are they even special in my life? In tough times you acknowledge the real character of others. Yes, the people I got next to me during my tough time, are more special than my special day that's what I would say.