Not your average kind of heartbreak

It's red,everything,
On my hands,
On my clothes,
Broken glasses with a state of disarray,
My blood, it's my blood on my hands from my heart,
My heart bleeds non-stop, it's hurts, I can't breathe,

I've been heartbroken for a long time now,
Not by a boy, not by a man, not by someone who broke a vow,
Not by my dad, not by my mom,
But but by the world and the harsh reality that make me squirm.

My heart bleeds not because a boy don't find me pretty,
But because of the death of humanity,
I lay in my bedroom at 3:00 a.m. wondering how we got to this,
When everything couldn't be fixed with mama's kiss,
When did the world stop becoming pretty, when did my eyes become so blurry,
When did I become a girl who always drown in worry,
When did I become a girl who stopped believing in fairy tales,

My heart is in pieces when we stop treating each other with kindness,
when we stop seeing each other, we have become accustomed to this blindness,
When we value ourself at the detriment of others,
When we sell people short and cheat just for a quick buck,

My heart gets tired when I realized that life is no fairytale,
When I realized that there's no Prince charming coming to save me,
That I may not get to be a princess and live in a Grand castle,
That this dragon will continue to breathe fire and wreck havoc,

This is not your average kind of heartbreak,
Not the kind you just get over,
Because this is not about a boy you just have to forget,
Not one that can be subdued with a heartbreak song,
Because my heart is breaking again and again with each injustice, prejudice, and discrimination seen
With each of my fantasy shattering and falling apart
it's like picking on a wound that have healed
it's opened again, like a wave of emotions that is not sealed

So................................... This is not your average kind of heartbreak not the one you just get over.

It's still Abeegail ✨💗
All images are mine