Ones beaten twice shy thats my story.
Have you ever been in love?but yet you feel empty.
Have you been in a relationship but yet you still feel alone like your dating yourself.
Too many things to take about.
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Hello givers, good evening, how do you do??
Hope your having fun this Christmas season.
Broken Hearts Are Hard To Mend ๐๐ญ๐๐ถ.
Falling in love was never my thing because I thought all guys are the same I feel guys are scum.
Falling in love has been my fear.
I fall in love with this guy,he was my close,my gist partner,my gossip mate but I wondered how there was no strings attached.
I fell in love with him even before we were close.
This guy was a defination of humility,he had good sense of humor and lot more,his name was Daniel.
All my life I was always waiting for Daniel to ask me what have been expecting to hear because I felt he didn't have any girlfriend and of course I don't see him around with girls just myself.
So finally he popped the question and we started dating.
The way we dated people could tell that we were already couples.
Daniel was such a sweet soul when it comes to Caring, loving and giving.
I didn't see any reason to complain in that relationship neither was it a toxic one.
One day,I saw Daniel with a girl trying to beg and apologize for something but I didn't think it was necessary to ask so I overlooked it.
Daniel came to my apartment after his lectures in the afternoon feeling sad and down,when I asked him why he said he didn't write his test well,but half part of me was telling me that Daniel was lying and I know my instinct doesn't lie .
Even in the night, Daniel won't sleep as usual,he was awake for moments and each time I asked him anything he will say is fine.
Our relationship started failing apart,and I believe in working out situations like that,you don't just have to give up easily like that fight for it.
Most times, Daniel won't even pick my calls,if he miss them he won't even return the calls either,I was so worried and at that point I knew I was about losing my friend.
I felt empty and permit me to use the word DEPRESSED.
My cgpa for that particular session and level reduced.
All my days I keep thinking about him and why he changed just like that.
Memories started bringing back memories.
I cried because have never been fortunate with relationships and when am lucky to find someone who loves me for who I am it doesn't last.
One fateful day,his male bestfriend dropped by my apartment to feed himself since he was famished,then I had the opportunity to ask him about his friend and what's up with the whole attitude this week,
This his bestie who didn't that I and Daniel are dating said.
"Daniel's put his girlfriend to the family way and I was like you mean Daniel impregnated his girlfriend???
He said yes,I was shocked,but then I didn't overreact I just needed his best friend to tell me everything so I started my investigations.
And it happens that Daniel has been lying to me for all these years we've been together.
He had a girlfriend which they were courting and in the process of courtship he impregnated the girl right under my roof and I wasn't aware of it.
I cried out my heart.
I know how painful it was to be betrayed,
I trusted him so much and now this kind of truth is revealed now,I didn't believe it until I saw the wedding invitation in my apartment,I knew he had my space key so he dropped the invitation with my keys and other valuable.
I was like so Daniel is actually getting married,and me????was I manipulated and used???
Yes, I was boiling in anger.
So he had plans of marrying someone else while dating me!!!
Now I had to start all over again. I hated it so much.
Up till now those broken Hearts Are still very hard to mend.
I thought he was different,๐คง๐ค๐๐ญ
I forgave him but then the scars are yet to be healed and forgotten.
Now,I don't know if I'll be able to love again.
It's really had.
Have a lovely Christmas week.