so so weird. like - i wasn't really HERE.

uh huh... i hear you... some confession time for me !LOLZ ... it may have something to do with me holding onto a little piece of your heart when I left hehe... to help me stay grounded and not miss my friend so much... it helped... a bit...but I still feel weird some days... so for me ... my experience of weird has been... after all that time together, in a completely different routine to normal, so full-on ...and then it was gone... something is now missing for me (even though we chat anyway haha)... and it's you... my friend... not being able to sit across from you in person in the kitchen or go for our walks and just speak my heart and listen to yours, laugh together, give you a hug, and have that interspersed with moments of silence... never awkward❣️ I mean we still have most of that in DM but yeah...

And for me, because God has blessed me immeasurably with your friendship, my heart now feels the physical separation because it knows the joy of spending time with you... and so..my heart actually does hurt sometimes that I live so far away from you hehe. My heart felt so full being in Cali, and I recognise that as something that comes with genuine connection, genuine friendship.... and now it feels a little less full and a little more empty... now that I am half a world away... despite the fullness and joy that I have in my life anyway with my own family and friends here in the UK... and having you just a click away on DM... So, here's to beginnings not ending!... I will catch you in DM... often haha... until we meet again in person.

Super proud of your Challenge efforts this week btw. You are rocking it!!! Your determination and enthusiasm are bouncing off the pages (screen) and I am so happy for you! It certainly does rub off hehe. Onwards and upwards into next week. Keep seeking out your joy.

...and because we all experience each other differently, and no two experiences of friendships are exactly the same... so this is my experience of you...and I get to say it back... I love you my friend, my Leah hehe (...and Dreemie time will come again lol)