What are My Activities During the Holidays?

Hello everyone, how are you? I hope you are doing well. I want to share some of my stories. Actually, this is the longest holiday I have ever had. More than a month, why? Mental attacks and need to choose. My life is not okay and it peaked this month.

I have tried to release it, but still can't. I have done a number of things, quite a lot of which turned out not to work. So, my workplace gave me a fairly long leave. What did I do? Of course, releasing the feelings that I have that have been pent up for so long.

In addition, I also consulted a psychologist. ahead of this New Year holiday, I spent time with my younger sister. I also plan to visit my parents' graves. Another thing, I also create content that is posted regularly on the hive account.

Last week, I took a tour around Jakarta's historical sites. It was the first time I could meet a stranger. A little progress, because I can leave the house without feeling suicidal.

Yesterday, I also met with Mba Titis and Vivi. Not yet recovered, but I can meet people. There is still a feeling of tiredness after the meeting. Another thing, that I will do is access bar therapy. At the same time I want to go around Bandung.

My main focus is releasing all the negative feelings that I have. Fully recover, that's what I hope for. In several meditations, when I asked "Who Am I?", I saw my cheerful self. From the meditation, I felt that I had lost myself, with a number of problems and turbulence that occurred.

When will I start my activities again? On January 6, I have to go to work. Today, I visited the toy museum and the Indonesian postal museum located in Bandung. I went around, I could walk 6000 steps. I saw the history of stamps in Indonesia and the changes in the Indonesian postal company.

It's just that I still feel like something is missing on this trip. I feel flat. Empty and unpleasant. I started to think, when was the last time I was happy? I feel like I forgot the last time I was happy.

Likewise when I went on tour, I still felt flat. That's all I can tell, this holiday is a time to find myself and recover. It feels like this year I've experienced a lot of flat and sad feelings. How can I find my cheerful self again? That's also what I want in this recovery period. That's all I can tell, See you in the next story.

_{My name is Nurdiani Latifah. I currently live in Jakarta – Indonesia, after 25 years I have been in Bandung. I am a media staff at an NGO in Indonesia. I have worked in this institution for almost 2 years on issues of women and peace. I have been a journalist in Bandung for 3 years.}

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