I've read your article on another platform ate but didn't know that it was this worst. I am sorry if you have to go through such a phase and if only I could help you from growing with your own thoughts and self-doubts. I've been there, oh scratch that, I am still there, fighting and constantly battling for survival. Maybe at some point, we will really encounter this moment and we can't do anything about it but accept, face, and deal with it. Because of too much desire of getting away from our battles, we often forgot that sometimes, the only solution we have is to stop escaping and start facing it. AFraid? Well, we all are, do it afraid then.