Losing a parent is something we seem to put out of our minds until the time comes. I think that is why it hits is so terribly hard when it happens. My father had a stroke and died several years later. The stroke rendered him completely paralyzed on the right side of his body meaning he could not really write, although he tried as best as he could with his left hand, but most tragically, he lost the ability to play his guitar.... and it broke his soul.

We lost my grandmother in 2019, at the age of 100, which is a pretty good run if I may say so! She made a priceless video for us of how she grew up being the youngest of five siblings and with her father dying of the Spanish flew, she never met him as her mother was still pregnant with her when he died. Her mother, a single mother of 5 children, had to learn to work the land and farm on her own and was no stranger to hard work.

I do think this made her terribly hard though.

The video talks of romances and travels that I was not aware of and it felt like I was getting to know her all over again.

My mother, who is a frail care nurse herself, took the video. I think she knew it was time, because shortly afterwards, Alzheimer's disease set in and my gran couldn't remember anything anymore.

I hope my mother writes down the story of her own life or that I get to record it, because my goodness did she have a fascinating life. I think I'd have to do that in episodes though as she just has so much story to tell.

I can;t imagine losing my mother. Losing m father was absolutely awful enough, and we weren't even close. But losing my mother? I am not sure how I would survive that. She has been my everything, my entire life.

I am so sorry for your loss.

Thank you for sharing this painfully beautiful post with us.

I love posting here, especially about painful emotional stuff as I feel like sharing and finding common ground with other people who have experienced something similar, is absolutely a huge part of healing and is nothing short of magical.

May your mother rest in peace. My sincerest condolences to you and the family.

Warmest Regards and love,

Claire