Brother — Hive

I notice I have few notes about my brother in my phone I never actually shared anywhere I can't sleep I guess it's time to let it out again.

Here it is

You know brother if you were here we would have so much fun man we would be roasting each other and id make you jealous of how much weight I lost and you would be showing off your chest we would be competing with each other as usual who is the fittest.

I really wish you were still here we would have built something so wonderful together I'm sorry I was immature when you were here I wish I was the better version of myself at that time but I was not.

You know the promise I made to you brother? I made it I did it and surprisingly it's better now it's harder for sure nothing is easy but it's much better than I expected the suffering was worth it.

Can't wait to see you when my time comes when my time comes everyone will be there I'll be the last to go up with you all being the youngest have it's ups and downs I guess hehe.

I have hundreds of notes I wrote in the past and I found another one I guess I couldn't finish this one

When you lose someone you love most your soul will scream out from your body and when the soul returns to your body it doesn't return fully the soul that returns to your body broken and battered

I never able to replace you it seems I'm still alone in my thoughts 💭 brother no one can understand how important it is to have deep connection while having a deep conversations you're the only one who knows my darkest desires, my hopes and dreams you know both side of me the light 🕯️ and dark 🌑 same as I know you.

Unfortunately you left too early brother I wish I could replace you but who the hell is like you? You're so different from everyone you're different like me the rest are all the same and mostly dull and dead even though they are breathing but there is no life 🧬 it's just robots no critical thinking like us. Sadly I'm becoming like the rest as well because there is no one to talk to not like when I had you.

(Picture is from Canva)