How did all these start? I keep asking myself. I never saw this coming, but before I could realize it, I was into the maze already, confused, not having the knowledge of where to go from my present spot. Everything kept happening at once but I had no idea what they were.

Time heals wounds they say, but in this case time has given room for more wounds, but these was all my fault, I let it happen. This was the only voice I keep hearing in my head.

shot by me

I could feel a glimpse of what the prodigal son felt in the the Bible, after he had disconnected himself from his family all in the name of greed, after he had spent all that was share to him during his departure, and at the moment he felt like going back even if it would cost him to be a slave in his own father’s house.

But just like the prodigal son, I have decided to lay away my regrets, I have decided to cry out my mind and seek reconnecting. Grace is always available, and everyone deserves a second chance, as far as they realizes what the mistake was and they are willing to make a retrace of step.

What really happened?

I used to be informed about ongoing projects in community as a result of quality engagement, reading different contents, learning from them and leaving comments in view of what I have learnt, until these slowly faded away.

Months ago, after a stressful day I would rest a little, then create time to go through updates from the proof of brain community before bed calls. I also wake up early enough to continue from where I had stopped the previous night, these has kept my balance between my daily activities and engagement on the blog chain.

About four weeks ago, at the start of November, things began to change, I still check up on the community but not has often as before . After getting through with my day in school and at home, I started to spend more time on movies and games till very late at night, these affected the time I wake up in the morning that I would have to rush down to my physical daily activities from bed.

As time passes. I started to feel reluctant to read through contents, it got to an extent that I just judge posts by the topic and picture, then I give my upvote. Connecting to a new place might be difficult, but trust me, it is not as difficult as trying to reconnect to a place where one feels disconnected from. I would say to myself… ‘today, I will read more and get things the way they used to be vie quality engagement’ only to find myself doing something else after I might have read one or two posts.

This is the beginning of December, and I intend to do better than last month. Now that I have persevered to go through the community, everything looks new and strange to me. I was a preacher of engagement, I would encourage my invitees to read contents and make comments in other to be aware of the updates in the community, but here I am, clueless to the new projects and developments on the community.

The VYB is one of the reasons why I feel so bad for my poor engagement last month, l would have been informed if I had been active on the community. Now I would just start to sort for 250 liquid pob token or more for the purchase of my VYB token. I hope that by the time I am set to buy it, it won’t be too late. I might probably unstake some Pob to balance up with my current liquid and payouts.

My plans on getting back on my feet of engagement.

• To discard all sort of distractions. I have stopped downloading movies for now , because it competes with my time for engagement.

• To ensure that I read at least 5 to 10 posts every morning before resume my daily duties.

• To make more comments and ask more questions when confused

• To ensure that I spend my leisure time doing what is of profit to me instead of pleasure.

Although it is good to create time for fun, but fun time shouldn’t get its way into work time. Because there is time for everything, and fun time might perhaps be regained but work time will never be replaceable.

This post was created to clear off my mind and to start afresh on a new page.

I remain your humble friend @corporateay. Stay blessed

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