We have positive motivators and negative motivators. Both can lead us to degrees of happiness. It seems you have faced some of the harsh realities of life. How do you push yourself past them? It sounds like you have a network of friends and family on whom to rely for support and strength. Do you share your dreams with them? If yes, do they support you in those or do they say you can't do what you dream? Do you listen to them and move on or use their words to encourage you to push to your desires?