Damn seriously. You did a great job to this post.
Actually yes many people here will not understand how you feel or understand what you post, but to be candid with you, thousands of people like you here passing or facing the same thing you faced or still facing here in this community understands this post very loud and clear which im one of the thousands. Seriously yes our parents has caged us since the tender time of our age, we were not allowed to be exposed, though it may be due to one reasons or the other. They wouldnt allow us to go out and if we do, we will be chastised, to the level in which friends can not follow me to the house or come to look for me in the house. That was how have been living my life. But as for me, all this life line usually makes me dull, you know the life itself is some kind of hard and not interesting. Have used to being alone in my life. When i was through with my secondary school, i did final exams which is waec(west african exam council) and neco, but at the end of it all i failed both. And at that particular time, if i was told by any teacher that I'm going to fail the exams as at that time, i will tell the teacher or the person to shot up, cos as at that time, i studied extremely extra ordinary, and every damn thing i wrote i understand and it goes along with questions we were given.

After that time, my dad went to enrol me in a private secondary school, i joined them from ss2 class, did i have option, when the time comes, i re do the exams again, and this time its worse in compared to the first results, both waec and neco exams. The following year again, my dad compulsory it for me to re write exam in that same private school again, but this time, i joined them from ss3 class. But i only register neco exam this time, I'm no more interested in waec exam as at that time. When i write exams again that year, all the results was cancelled and that was when i voiced out and tell my dad i cant do this no more. I told my mum to talk to my dad to allow me to travel to go and do this exam elsewhere. After long talk my dad allow me to trave to ibadan oyo state to go and write the exams there. Actually my own thought is like if have gotten to ibadan, im not coming back home. That means I'm finallt free in which i dont know I'm going from frying pan to fire. When i got to ibadan, the year i wrote the neco exams is the year i cleared everything. The result is one of the best that year. After the exams so i thought i will be resting at home and be having fun, but to my greatest surprise, my grandma and grandpa frustrates me until i ran back to my parents.

So as i am, i processed university school admission for over 9years, within this 9years, almost all the available school forms that comes out that i used to buy, and i will go to write there exams, but my greatest surprise is all the time, i used to score above the schools stipulated cut off marks to admit the students but never the less, i wont still be given admission. The 10th year i have to live home, i just left home cos i was tired of everything. Though within this period of 9years and 10years, i passed through a lot in which if i have to be typing it now, we wont end this dicussion today, i was vicrimized by friends, secondary school mates and people around saying we know, his not serious, his only doing big boy around and lots of talks. I was promised a gun by a friend during that time. She told me that time that if i did not gain admission into university that year that shes going to come home and shot m. So after i left home, i went for a six month programme in a university then. After that programs that was when i now gain admitted into the university.

When i get admitted into the university again, another war. People, friends and parents are expecting us to come out with a very good grades, yes thats how it supposed to be, but the school issue is not an easy thing to be very candid, you will deem it fit to study hard, to give it all it takes to pass a particular course but thats when you will be hearing a lecturer will be telling you, gradeA is for the lectures, gradeB is for the genius students, gradeC is for the average students, gradeD is for the regular students while gradeE is for the rest of the students. What pains me the most is a course i did after the resumption of covid19 break, we was taken by two lecturers for the course. Whe we did the exams, the lecturers set there questions separetely and we did it on that same day, to my greatest surprise, the exam i did night class, evening class and lots of tutorial because of it. The lecturers are now given me unreasonable grade. Like i vexed at them, i asked if the grade is meant for just one of the lecturers or for both the lecturers, that was when i was sent out of the lecturers office. So in this case, this are things we faced many atimes in the institution. So i dont expect anybody to blame me if i come out with any grade in the institution.

Yes actually i used to think alot of times that I'm i wasnt living the life im expecting to live by myself. But what i keep thinking is, let me take a step at a time, after I'm done satisfying my parents, im sure I'm gonna live my life to the fullest, seriously i want to have impact in life, i want to be someone that people will be looking up to as a mentor, not neccesarily a powerful person but i want to have positive impact in peoples life. I want to travel the world and i want to be know for my good characters and impact in life. Actually this is my final year in school, so after this year in school, we will know the next line of action and steps to take.
I want you to have it at the back of mind and be rest assured that you are not alone. We are in this together. If the kind of thinking can meet, i think we can make a difference in life. Best of luck in all your endeavors man. Never give up. We will surely get there. Our childrens and wife will surely be proud of us by Gids grace.
Peace out man✌
One love ❤️