I am sure that in old age we will all regret what we didn’t do versus what we did.
I like to think that at any given time we all make the best decisions that we can, at that time. Regrets are an awful thing to have (I know this from experience) and there is certainly no magic pill to make them go away. If, however, we all know we are doing the best we can at any given time, the regrets are minimised.
It's good to see that you took the time for yourself that you needed. So many people don't. I've even told my own children (old enough to care for themselves) that they are on their own for a weekend because if I don't take some time to care for myself, I will not be able to care for them when they need it. It's a balance.
I am beautiful either way
Yes you are. Everyone needs to tell themselves this every day.
Regrets are like an infection really. They consume your energy. I was very good at shutting down my emotions. I can paint , write and work my emotions away. It can last for a long time until I snap.
People don't want to deal with trauma. Me included. But it is no other way around life and becoming better. I am still trying to find a way through this maze and hope for the exit. I know it is there and I am getting more clarity. Writing in a journal really helps, it is a way to release inner emotions faster without doing damage around. Emotions and coping with them has been a foreign language for me throughout my life. I have read all the books, watched all the videos, listened to all the podcasts...the putting into practice has been the hardest.
It is a work in progress and I realize that it will take me time. I don't want to hide from this by starting to spend hours working or sitting online or finding ways to bury the feelings again. Self denial doesn't work anymore although I am very good at reading for hours and pretending I am so so good, there is nothing wrong lol. The pain? Me? Oh no I am so good. Hmm right. Lol.
Self love is huge, I am learning this everyday. Baby steps. Understanding emotions the kindergarten phase:Mary.