Lol...ofcourse the world doesn't need saving, you'd get burnt if you keep trying. You can do your bit as the spirit leads yeah, but when it stresses you too much, it's sign that it's not in your place to be the messiah this time.
I really cannot come and go and kill myself.
I think it has to do more with my expectation. I expect people to choose growth and everything that would possible make life better both individually and collectively but for some strange reason people choose otherwise. So I guess I can't change that and so I shouldn't be bothered about it that much