Lost in Mexico...

in GEMS3 years ago (edited)

I am very glad to have left Germany and that I dared to take the step to emigrate, but the first weeks were not exactly easy in Mexico...

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Freshly separated from my then-boyfriend, I always wanted to live in a warm country. Nothing kept me in Germany anymore so I packed my bags, dropped the few remaining belongings I owned at my grandma's place, and booked a ticket to Mexico. Away from the cold temperatures in Germany, the still prevailing corona nonsense and my old love....
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After arriving in Mexico, initially, I couldn't really enjoy the country and the people. I felt somewhat alone and lost. I traveled a bit through the country, met some new people, but never really felt at home. I simply hadn't processed the separation yet.

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To "switch off" my feelings I started smoking a lot of weed, but I realized very quickly that it only made me feel worse and quit it immediately.
I started to write down my thoughts, no matter how confusing they were, just to write down what came to mind. It somehow freed me and I felt "lighter" afterwards.

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I had a small ceremony during which I wrote my ex a letter. It processed the separation a lot and afterwards I burned it on the beach. This helped me incredibly well to process everything and to get some closure.

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I started meditating on the beach in the morning or just sitting there and crying :) Meditating in the morning on the beach gave me so much power!
The rising sun was so powerful and beautiful, and it gave me the feeling that there is so much more in the world and that we are all protected by Mother Nature, or God. It may sound strange but I felt it that way.

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Besides meditating I started to read a lot - mostly books about self-healing, positive thinking, and spirituality- and started with exercises on self-love. I just wanted to be the best version of myself, to be happy alone, and not need another person.

As Carl Jung wrote: "He who looks outside, dreams. He who looks inside, awakens"

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The first 8 weeks weren't the best weeks for me in Mexico. Maybe it wasn't the right time to emigrate, but I'm very happy that I did and I would do it again and again because this chapter in my life has made me unbelievably strong, and it has changed my life forever.

Now I can enjoy my time even more :D

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These were the first weeks of my emigration. Currently, I left Mexico after 6 months and am now in the Dominican Republic. Getting here wasn't easy and was an adventure on its own, but that's a story for another time....
Thanks for reading! I would really appreciate a comment, like etc.
Looking forward to anyone having similar experiences!

Love, Anna

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Great post. Appreciate your sense of freedom and particularly the risk-taking which your new adventure embodies, Im definitely going to follow your journey! I'm on a similar mission, having recently broken up after 6.5 years. I will take a leaf out of your book - write that letter and burn it on a beach somewhere in the tropics. Great tip, thank you

thanks for your nice comment. yes, try it, it helps me a lot, write down what you have in your head in this moment🙂