Hello, after so many days being emotionally very bad, I decided to treat myself and get rid of those sorrows.
Hola, después de tantos días estando muy mal emocionalmente, decidí darme un gusto y sacar esas penas.
I said I was going to eat a little healthier and I am really doing it, I am also practicing a little Yoga to feel very good about myself, so far everything has given me a little more peace, for days I had been receiving invitations to go out to eat or just do something different and I had been refusing, but I decided to take my time and go out to eat.
This post may not seem very productive to you, but at least it helps me a lot, and makes me feel good, and if I can express it on my blog, so be it. My life is a sea of emotions, and my blog too, I think it is one of the few places where I am honest about how I feel and I will reveal why, it is very simple because there is no one pressuring me to be or do something here, there are no expectations to fulfill here, except my own, and in a way that gives me a relief, I feel this place a refuge.
Dije que iba a comer un poco más saludable y de verdad lo estoy haciendo, también estoy practicando un poco de Yoga para sentirme muy bien conmigo misma, hasta ahora todo me ha dado un poco más de paz, desde hace días había estado recibiendo invitaciones para ir a comer o solamente hacer algo diferente y yo me había estado negando, pero decidí tomarme el tiempo y salí a comer.
Quizá este post no les parezca muy productivo pero al menos me ayuda mucho a mi, y me hace sentir bien a mi, y si puedo expresarlo en mi blog que así sea. Mi vida es un mar de emociones, y mi blog también, creo que es uno de los pocos lugares donde soy honesta acerca de cómo me siento y les revelaré el por qué, es muy sencillo porque no hay nadie presionandome para ser o hacer algo aquí, no hay expectativas que cumplir aquí, excepto las mías propias, y en cierta forma eso me genera un alivio, siento este lugar un refugio.
And to be honest with you, I like to show that I went to a restaurant and I like to show what I ate, and again I am going to reveal why, because I want to feel good, on many occasions ideas have crossed my mind of the type "And if I go to some crazy bar with a friend to pour my sorrows into alcohol, will it work"?? I'm not that kind of person but that kind of experience makes me very curious but I quickly dismiss it and start to enter into a battle with myself, I feel like I'm looking for my own attention or maybe I'm waiting for someone to come and rescue me from something, I don't know, I think I live in a fantasy world but I always stop myself before doing something stupid and I always hope to continue having that will every time a thought like that crosses my mind.
Y para ser honesta con ustedes, me gusta mostrar que fui a un restaurante y me gusta mostrar lo que comí, y otra vez les voy a revelar el por qué, porque quiero sentirme bien, en muchas ocasiones se me han cruzado ideas por la cabeza del tipo "Y si me voy a algún bar loco con alguna amiga a echar mis penas en alcohol, funcionará"?? No soy esa clase de persona pero me genera mucha curiosidad ese tipo de experiencias pero rápidamente la descarto y empiezo a entrar en una batalla conmigo misma, siento que busco la atención de mi misma o quizá espero que alguien venga a rescatarme de algo, no sé, creo que vivo en un mundo de fantasías pero siempre me detengo a mi misma antes de hacer algo estúpido y espero siempre seguir teniendo esa voluntad cada vez que se me cruce un pensamiento así.
That is why I am here today, showing that I ate a burger, which is quite big and delicious, but it was also very expensive and there I was, drowning my sorrow between each bite and making it worthwhile, the company, the food, the going out, the conversation, the moment, I immersed myself and stayed there, taking advantage of that moment. And I had to do it because when I feel really bad, I completely lose my appetite, sometimes a simple thought crosses my mind and bye bye appetite again, so yes, today I took a sip of life, I mean it that way but really that drink in the photo, it reminded me of very nice things, it's called Spring and it has a quite tropical flavor of citrus fruits, it reminded me that there is a juice called Fruit Punch that my mom likes a lot, and it's the same flavor.
Es por eso que estoy hoy aquí, enseñando que comí una hamburguesa, la cuál es bastante grande y estuvo deliciosa, pero también costó carísima y ahí estaba yo, ahogando la pena entre cada mordisco y haciéndolo valer la pena, la compañía, la comida, la salida, la conversación, el momento, me sumergí y me quedé ahí, aprovechando ese momento. Y tenía que hacerlo porque cuando me siento muy mal, pierdo por completo el apetito, a veces un simple pensamiento se me cruza y adiós apetito de nuevo, así qué, sí, hoy tomé un sorbo de la vida, lo digo de esa forma pero realmente esa bebida de la foto, me hizo recordar cosas muy lindas, se llama Spring y tiene un sabor bastante tropical a frutas cítricas, me recordó que hay un jugo llamado Ponche de frutas que le gusta mucho a mi mamá, y es el mismo sabor.
I have to be really thankful and stay strong, I feel like I made a bad impression that I doubt everything, for example, I wanted these cheese sticks, and I remember saying the name out loud but in my mind I said "No, don't order them" but I wanted to eat them and I don't know what happened, it was like my mind sabotaged me and prevented me for a moment from something I wanted, it's incredible how something so simple is reflected in everything we've been through, in the end I did eat the cheese sticks.
Tengo que ser muy agradecida de verdad y mantenerme fuerte, siento que quedé muy mal que dudo de todo, por ejemplo, quería estos palitos de queso, y recuerdo que dije en voz alta el nombre pero en mi mente dije "No, no los pidas" pero quería comerlos y no sé qué pasó fue como que mi mente me saboteó y me impidió por un instante algo que quería, es increíble como algo tan sencillo se ve reflejado en todo lo que hemos pasado, al final sí comí los palitos de queso.
It is incredible all the things that go through my head, some people do not give it much importance because they are not in the same situation, they even tend to think that you are making a drama but everything is over until they go through the same situation as you, I have learned to be more empathic and judge less, even a publication like this, on the outside we see and think that a food pic is stupid but who knows, the feelings behind that person who took the photo, remember that behind the things we see there is always a human being trying something, often in a desperate attempt to be noticed or to find an excuse to move on.
Es increíble todas las cosas que pasan por mi cabeza, algunas personas no le dan mucha importancia porque no están en la misma situación, incluso suelen pensar que estás haciendo un drama pero todo se acaba hasta que pasan por la misma situación que tú, desde hace un tiempo he aprendido a ser más empática y juzgar menos, incluso una publicación como esta, por fuera vemos y pensamos que estupidez una foto a la comida pero quién sabe, los sentimientos detrás de esa persona que tomó la foto, recuerda que detrás de las cosas que vemos siempre está un ser humano intentando algo, muchas veces en un desesperado intento de ser notado o de buscar una excusa para seguir adelante.
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it looks delicious, yes the cake you eat
It was :)
So cheesy!
I'm sorry you've feeling so bad emotionally. I know that alcohol doesn't help, it just delays the issues instead of addressing them. I think writing in your blog is a good way to work through the bad emotions and I hope you feel better soon. The food looks so good!
Every time I'm doing it makes me feel somehow better
I'm so glad to hear that!
It will be good for you to write your thoughts as they are in order to express yourself. At least it helps you shed bad feelings.
It was also quite appetizing content! :)
Thank you ;) I was hungry of expression
Hello @josehany, I hope you are emotionally better today! I feel identified with your post, because I think you have depressive episodes, maybe I don't know. I have felt like you in many moments, even today, is one of those. There are people who get depressed as part of a fermentation and other situations that happen that cause injuries to try to bring it down, I identify with the latter. I am also like you in other aspects, many drown in alcohol or do some kind of madness, but even in these circumstances my conscience does not allow me either. But the truth is that it is good to do things that take us out of our own self-lamentation. I still lose my appetite and tend to isolate myself, I also sleep more than normal. We all have different reasons but there are common feelings. It's good that you shared your experience, that food looks delicious and part of your feelings is catarchic. But you didn't talk about your company lol maybe it's for a next one 😅😉
Hey, thank you so so so much for stopping by. Yes, I'm trying to do things exactly for that I'm takiyme out of my self lamentations it is harder. And yes I actually never talk about my company but it is some kind of fear I have, for real, like ppl will go away (my company)
I understand you! Dont worry. You are doing this things And it Is Good for you. I hope that you can feel better nos, AND that your company help you to that ☺️.
So true.
Also, if this made you feel even a little better, it was totally worth it.
Having struggled with depression for many years, myself - eventhough it has never been officially diagnosed - I can easily relate to this. These days I have plenty of tricks up my sleeve to not feel bad for too long though, eating is one of them and so is writing.
Sending you a hug! :>)
We have the same tricks, we need to keep fighting
300% apoyo a este post. Esa es la actitud! SaludosBendiciones
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