I was starting to get worried about you and even thought that you might have gotten lost in that plant-infested jungle you call a bathroom!
I'm so sorry that you have to experience this kind of pain, I almost thought you were reaching out for the safe shores. It's painful. Having your heart ripped out while it is still beating might be less painful, although a toss-up on which is more traumatic.
I think this is so hard to sort through and live life. Being tossed aside as if you aren't important is pretty rude, you can part with a person, but, to make them feel less than a person? Rude. I cannot be cruel to anyone, even if they have done me wrong, I am not that person. But, you need to take care of yourself and shut him off, so that you can get back to where you belong.
You are so beautiful, even in your pain and sickness.
Be well, everyone is here, and reach out. XOXO
Oh getting lost in a jungle filled with plants might have felt more enjoyable than this. I am taking life as it happens day by day and I am aware that healing will not happen overnight. Introspection helps and writing about it. It is interesting to read my own thoughts and understand my reactions and emotions better.
I am learning to prioritize my emotional health as well as I can easily pretend that I am fine when in fact I am not.
Thank you very much Denise, I am grateful that I can speak here sincerely and have genuine support, it is soothing for my heart. I will continue to heal , slowly. Reading, painting, writing helps.