is to completely deny the understanding of matter itself

exactly. I no longer agree with modern materialistic science.
I have seen too many disproofs of all the big formulas

such as:

• A bench top experiment which produces faster than light travel.
• The double slit experiment showing that a single photon interferes with itself, back in time.
• The gravitational constant changing across the surface of the earth.
• and many more

Further, i have experienced many thing in the ways of metaphysics. Such as changing the past.
And, what really sucks is that NONE of these can be proven.

I change my past, and all you remember is the new past.
You will say, "nothing changed, where's your proof?"
However i have met many people who have had similar experiences.