The Pain in my Neck

"Get down from that bed and go put on a dress!" I had shouted out of frustration which I regretted terribly. A sharp pain ran through my head and I had to close my eyes for few minutes to deal with my head.

All they could see was I closed my eyes. They must have thought I was extremely mad at them and was trying to calm myself.
I had told them countless times to always cover their bodies, even if they're with same gender. I feel like it's disrespectful exposing oneself just because you're with your gender in same room.

I had left for few minutes, and they ran to my room to report someone to me.
"they refused to pack the clothes on the floor and even after we've swept, they still came around with dirt from their room to ours". I sighed heavily. Heaven knows I was tired and needed more than enough time to rest. I haven't slept in the afternoon in days and at night, it was always one issue or the other to be settled. My head feels heavy, my eyes are tired and my body needs to rest.

I always have to talk, and go as far as shout. I don't believe in cane, besides the management as well doesn't encourage beating. But these kids only understand threats and beatings. I feel like I haven't talked this much since I was born. How do I handle 12 kids on my own. I've never been a parent and I've only have to deal with my cousins for few days. These are not my cousins nor families. It's strictly professional.

They are the pain in my neck.