I want you to picture you eating an apple from an apple tree and then the apple tree eats you.
Let's switch it up a little bit. I want you to imagine you eating an orange from an orange tree and then the orange tree turns around and eats you. That is how you look every time you cling to your assignment, trying to refill on something you were only meant to pour into.
Fruit trees only need water. Now you still feel unfulfilled because you're trying to get nourishment from the wrong nutrients. But sometimes you're only called to pour into people and they're supposed to get the apples from your apple tree. And then you have to turn around and go to your sustainer to get refilled so that you can pour into the assignments God has called you to.
Those people that you've been pouring into and have been expecting them to pour back into you are not able to pour back into you. They don't have the capacity right now. And they may never have it.
I had to learn to stop being so fixated on wanting it to come from that person and that resource and that situation. And that I stopped looking for it in the actual source, which was God.
And so I got in codependent relationships.
And I got situations where I was trying to be filled from people that didn't have the capacity to love me correctly. And then I blamed God for what they couldn't do because I wasn't putting my faith in God, the one that was able to do it the whole time.
But you have to accept it. God will send you people that are assigned to you. But if you feel like you're trying to fight to reach and receive something from somebody that they don't have the capacity to give, then that's not what they're there for.
Father God, we ask that you will teach us to identify with discernment who is our assignment and who is somebody that is assigned to us. Teach us how to get out the way and let you choose for us our friendships, our resources, and our relationships so that we do not run to the resource as if it was the source.