I feel sad, anguish, and pain reading your blog tonight. It was a good thing that you recognized your mistakes and the lacking of others. At this moment, I think you already know what it feels like to be helpless, yet here you are writing boldly about it. Such a courageous and brave woman you are!
I can still feel the sadness while writing this, but I still made it to the end. Hmmm. It was a not-so-good experience but it taught me a lot of lessons.